I'm still of two minds as to whether I should be peeved over the other day. People know I'm broke, I can't afford a [land-line] phone, let alone an ISP and yet when I do manage to scrape together some funds for credit for my mobile - and then proceed to txt them, I receive not so much as an acknowledgment that I've finally been able to reach out to anyone and say hello. - all not good when you need to see your Dr. [for more than one thing too] but if all goes well, I can take care of that on Monday after a Legacy lunch thing. Am not looking forward to what he might have to say....

Yes! This means I'm still having the anxiety problems - leaving the house is still a trial, let alone calling anyone [which nowadays also involves leaving the house to get to the nearest public phone...]

Although nobody has checked in the longest time [I am still contactable by mobile or even ... in person...], I thought I'd just confirm that yes, I am still in the world of the living.

If this sounds even just slightly bitchy and/or sarcastic - good!

Have had abdominal pains since early Fri morning. They have eased off greatly since Mon morning but are still at nuisance level. They may even have been different pains at different times, just all in the same general area.

( Bitch session )

I love gadgets! Not an unusual thing.
I love little gadgets. Making things smaller makes less stuff I need to carry/store.

I have a portable cassette player that I bought in '84 that is Walkman. It is much smaller than the first one I ever had [but that could record as well]. Its size is still great, it's the size of the tapes that suck if you want to take more than one on bus trips etc.

I have a portable CD player. I bought a Discman in '93 but it died. My current player was a lot cheaper but doesn't play MP3 discs. It and 10 discs take up a space [in a bag] of not much more than the player tself.

An MP3 player would be great. All the music that I can carry for the CD player [and more] and a lot less space. Most of them are beyond my budget though. I find one [more than one actually] that could just scrape in to my decreased budget but I still don't buy it. Why?

An MP3 player needs a computer to download music from. If I show my 'puter a music file it's gonna have heart failure. This is my supposition based on the awful noise that occurs whenever I have tried to play a music CD on it.

Good thing the shelves died and I have to spend the money on a new cupboard or such to put some of my fabric stash into.

Would it be wrong for me to refuse to leave 'blackmailed' feedback on eBay after a transaction? By blackmailed, I mean the sort that a seller wont leave feedback after you've paid until you leave feedback. I would think that if you have been a prompt payer [I always am], respond to emails as soon as you get them [I do] and generally do everything right by the seller, they should leave feedback to indicate that rather than waiting to see what you say about them. This leaves a nasty taste of 'write something nice or I wont' to my mind and I don't like it at all!

My psychiatrist diagnosed me as having very little ego. It's true. However, even a little ego can be hurt.

I did my laundry, including my one wearable, not in need of repairs, not too short sarong.

Earlier today I had blueberries. Yum, except for the cutting the top of my thumb on the plastic pakaging. I dealt.

Just went out to bring in the laundry. For the first time ever, found bird poop on a laundered garment - my sarong. Was knocking dried poop off when a small piece of it finds its way into the small cut on my thumb. Digging it out caused cut to bleed [for the first time].

Now I'm trying to type sans one [betadine browned] thumb and having to contemplate doing another load of wash so that I have something cool to shlump around the house in.

Did I mention that it's been hot today?

My landlord/housemate has soo managed to open his mouth and stick his own foot in it and the worst thing about it is that he doesn't think anything he said was wrong.

I've been here for two years now and for the most part it's okay. I have 2 1/2 rooms [+ my own bathroom] for a really cheap price [the market considering]. I'm left to my own devices and I can live with that as he's not a person I would choose as a friend.

He eats loudly - so I avoid the kitchen when he's in there.
He doesn't clean up after himself in the kitchen - I work around it and make sure I don't contribute to the mess.
He is arrogant in his attitudes about many things - so long as I don't have too many conversations with him, I can deal.

It is this last thing that got on my goat tonight. Knowing what he has heard from me, and what was said early in the conversation, he started defending David's treatment of me. He was okay with the fact that David chased away all my friends by intimidating them, males and females alike. He was okay that David didn't like that I had to associate with people to work. He was okay that David was jealous of people that I had known before I'd met him, even though I'd stopped seeing them before I'd met him and even though they had just been friends. He seems to think that psychological and emotional abuse is okay because it's not pyhsical. He wonders why he can't get a woman in his life for more than one or two dates...

I have to go into Civic tomorrow because if I had of gone on this cooler day today, the piece of paper that one government department wants me to get from another government department and have delivered to first government department by tomorrow would not have been in my mailbox if I had taken the time to go and pick up some eBay purchases I'm expecting. Yes, I realise that means that because I did not go today, the governmental piece of paper that the first government department wants [to fix an error they made some time ago] has probably been sitting there all week but if I had gone today, it wouldn't have arrived until tomorrow! [Fact - one of my maternal great-grandmothers WAS a Murphy!]

Have I mentioned what the predicted temperature for tomorrow is? A whole 4 degrees higher than today's 33, which was of itself bad enough. My body does not like summer! Indeed it hates it with such a passion that it punishes me for existing during the temperatures that happen on the other side of 25 [NB for any non-Australians bothering to read this rant, a reminder that I'm speaking in degrees Celsius ie, tomorrow will be pushing 100 F]

I got out the fan for my bedroom but it being noisy means it's only good to use when I'm awake. Of course, it had accumulated a seasons worth of dust and I did the sensible thing and took it outside to clean. Now I'm being reminded that mosquitoes think of me as a fat smorgasbord - just what I needed.

I'm sorry but when does this become a 'happy' holiday?

-EDIT- an hour has passed, I thought, in an attempt to cheer myself up and as I had just yesterday been reminder by ozgenre that I had a copy of Civilization [albeit a very old copy] that I had not yet uploaded to my latest hard drive, that I might do so and while away some time [being that it is too warm to do much else]. Grandma strikes again! My copy was on two floppy disks and can I find the first one? You guess. Why do I bother with life?

It's no secret that I hate my 'puter. If it can cause me grief it does [and is] but this time my dummy spit is about a program.

If I didn't have a 'puter, depression would drive me to pull out a deck of cards and play solitaire/patience all day [experience tells me this is so]. At least this way I can watch the world pass by as well [and the silverfinches at the window if I'm awake].

I'm not a great fan of computer games that are anything other than some sort of the solitaire/patience/puzzle variety. I also don't like the concept of being able to go and find 'cheats' to help you get past a section of a game that one has found to hard. It is just that - cheating! However, my problem at the moment is a program that 'cheats' on me.

Ok, so it didn't cost a fortune [one of those 101 puzzle and logic games CDs that only cost $10] and most of the games don't have any instructions but are easy enough to figure out the rules and I don't have the right hardware for one game but I can live with that [even if it does look to be one of the more interesting games on the disc]. The game I play the most however [trying to beat my own hig scores] has a nasty habit of changing the rules on me at odd moments and it pings me off. I'm further pinged by the fact that the on-line web-site doesn't exist [and never has for as long as I've had the disc.

Why does this keep happening to me. Even a simple thing like a basic computer game wont go right for me.

I am way to many steps closer to drop kicking my 'puter of a very tall building!!!!

Somehow, however, I have managed to throw together a canberra_events newsletter for this week.



snurched from gwyon_bach

wolfkit's LJ stalker is vonne!

vonne is stalking you because they think you are rich and they want your blingbling. They are also in jail for murder!